Before i came to IIT.

Smoking: never
Drinking: never

In IIT.

Smoking: never
Drinking: occasionally

A few days back.

Smoking: did that once
Drinking: occasionally

What has changed in the last few years. From a non-drinker, non-smoker i have turned into something else. i still remember the time when i could say very proudly (and man, was i proud) i dont smoke, i dont drink. atleast this was one field where i could see eye to eye with my parents. now i cant. last time when rinki didi asked me whether i drink or not, it was so dificult for me to lie on her face. i think she got that. i think she understood. it written all over her face. isn't it wrong to lie to the ppl u love?? y do we do things that we cant be proud of?? chalo, still i cud somehow convince myself, that drinking is not so bad as it seems (although i still cant think of a reason y is it necessary to drink). but, i was averse to the smoking. how could i ever do that??
U wont understand how thankful I am to Iyer. I just wish every one found a friend like him. He stopped me just in time. He caught my arm, just when i was about to take the leap in the unseen. In his words.. " there's just a thin wall between, 'why should I??' and 'why shouldn't I??'. Don't ever cross that wall. because, its very difficult to come back." I would always remember those words Iyer. and i would always be thankful to you. For being their when I needed a friend the most. I did smoke that night. and I am not proud of that. I succumbed to the pressure from around. the pressure that is so much prevalent and still we r not able to feel it, till we bow down. Now I can understand what goes wrong with young people. Now, I can see why Anshu must have started smoking.
Oh God!! help me get out of this burden and let me help someone come out of this cycle. Let me be a friend to someone in trouble.
One thing is for sure, I won't smoke. no never.

Lyrics by Don Schlitz As Performed by Kenny Rogers
	The greatest little boy, in a baseball hat, stands in the field, with his ball and bat. Says "I am the greatest player of them all!" He puts his bat on his shoulder, and he tosses up his ball. And the ball goes up, and the ball comes down, and he swings his bat all the way around. The world's so still you can hear the sound, as the baseball falls, to the ground. Now the little boy doesn't say a word... Picks up his ball. He is undeterred. Says, "I am the greatest there has ever been!" And he grits his teeth. And he tries it again. And the ball goes up, and the ball comes down, and he swings his bat all the way around. And the world's so still you can hear the sound, as the baseball falls, to the ground. He makes no excuses; he shows no fear He just closes his eyes, and listens to the cheers. Now the little boy, he adjusts his hat. Picks up his ball. Stares at his bat. Says "I am the greatest, and the game is on the line!" So he gives his all, one last time. And the ball goes up, like the moon so bright, swings his bat, with all his might. And the world's as still as still can be, and the baseball falls; and that's strike 3. Now it's supper time, and his momma calls. Little boy starts home, with his bat and ball. Says, "I am the greatest, that is a fact... but even I didn't know, I could pitch like that!"