Before i came to IIT.

Smoking: never
Drinking: never

In IIT.

Smoking: never
Drinking: occasionally

A few days back.

Smoking: did that once
Drinking: occasionally

What has changed in the last few years. From a non-drinker, non-smoker i have turned into something else. i still remember the time when i could say very proudly (and man, was i proud) i dont smoke, i dont drink. atleast this was one field where i could see eye to eye with my parents. now i cant. last time when rinki didi asked me whether i drink or not, it was so dificult for me to lie on her face. i think she got that. i think she understood. it written all over her face. isn't it wrong to lie to the ppl u love?? y do we do things that we cant be proud of?? chalo, still i cud somehow convince myself, that drinking is not so bad as it seems (although i still cant think of a reason y is it necessary to drink). but, i was averse to the smoking. how could i ever do that??
U wont understand how thankful I am to Iyer. I just wish every one found a friend like him. He stopped me just in time. He caught my arm, just when i was about to take the leap in the unseen. In his words.. " there's just a thin wall between, 'why should I??' and 'why shouldn't I??'. Don't ever cross that wall. because, its very difficult to come back." I would always remember those words Iyer. and i would always be thankful to you. For being their when I needed a friend the most. I did smoke that night. and I am not proud of that. I succumbed to the pressure from around. the pressure that is so much prevalent and still we r not able to feel it, till we bow down. Now I can understand what goes wrong with young people. Now, I can see why Anshu must have started smoking.
Oh God!! help me get out of this burden and let me help someone come out of this cycle. Let me be a friend to someone in trouble.
One thing is for sure, I won't smoke. no never.